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Hi, Welcome to my blog as well as my personal diary. I am a pharmacist by qualification and done research on neuroscience for my Ph.D. I am a male, 44 years old suffering from multitude of problems such as stuttering, anxiety, depression, low energy levels, low libido and low motivation. I have stuttering from my childhood (around 4 years old). I used to stutter moderately in my childhood. When I was around 10 years old, my stuttering was less and I managed to speak near fluently (new persons could not recognize me as a stutterer).

My adolescent period started around 12 years and from then my problems also started. I had severe acne on my face on those days which gave high level of stress and depression. I felt highly sensitive and anxious whenever a person roll his/her eyes my acne-filled face while talking. I hated to hear comments about my acne. I resisted even treatment for acne. But I was a topper in my class in school. Acne subsided slowly when I was around 19 years old after taking some medications. Before even I feel relieved and started enjoying my late adolescent period, suddenly a change occurred in my mood when I was around 19 years old. The attack was characterized with increased pulse rate (100 beats per minute), unable to sleep at night and feeling anxious always. It looked to me like a anxiety attack or panic attack. I took prescribed medication for a month and my symptoms were reduced but my mood did not improve. My mood remained as a depressed mood. I was not depressed for 24 hours. But, I was not in a mood to make any enjoyment or perceive happiness as before.

This condition slowly worsened and when I was around 24 years old, I felt another attack of depression characterized with excessive sleepiness, tiredness, lack of motivation and unable to seek or perceive any enjoyment or meaning in life. At this time, I did not realize that this was depression and need to be treated (no one in my family also recognized my behavior). I thought that it was my personality change. Slowly this condition worsened to produce head twitches while speaking or moving the head. At this time only, I felt the need to see a doctor. The doctor diagnosed me with depression and advised me to take antidepressants. Since I am a pharmacist, I checked all the medicines for their side effects. I was worried about their sexual side effects because I was married. So I decided to try with nutraceutical supplements along with some prescribed drugs. Meanwhile my career also progressed slowly (not at the pace I deserve for my intelligence and inherent abilities) due to low level of interpersonal skills precipitated by stuttering and anxiety. Since I am doing my research on neuroscience, I started observing my therapy very keenly. Since I have a triad of problems (stuttering, anxiety and depression), I was not able to balance all the three. When I took certain drugs, it reduced my anxiety but not my stuttering. My increased stuttering led to more anxiety of speaking at the end. To reduce my stuttering, I took another medicine. That did not reduce my depression. So, I used so many drugs/nutraceuticals to experiment with all the possible drugs/nutraceuticals combinations for my stuttering, anxiety and depression. But at the end, I could not remember the effect of each one. So, I decided to document all the results in a more objective manner so that when I refer back I can select a good medicine.

So, these are my personal diary comments for me to solve my problems and live happily. At the same time, I understand that there may be millions of people around the world suffering like me. So, these information may be helpful to them in some manner. However, I strongly advise that you may not experience all the effects of the drugs/nutraceuticals like me since my personality is composed with persistent social anxiety due to stuttering and depression. So, please be cautious of this fact while making any interpretations from this blog.
My neuro configuration may be different from yours. So, you may experience different/modified effects than me if you take all these supplements.
Please feel free to comment and share your experiences. If you are a sufferer like me, let us hope for the betterment of our lives. Thanks.

12 comments:

  1. Please provide your eMail, ICQ or Skype. I want contact you regarding stuttering ussue. Thank you!
    My email address: eskadron@gmx.de

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  2. Hello, Thanks for your comment. I prefer not to give my email to avoid spamming. Please write your comments/views here itself so that our discussion is useful to other readers as well. Thanks.

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  3. Ma'am,
    Thanks for writing this blog..
    Generally want to ask, that which medicines or supplement you take during this period and how long you carried out all this medicines.??? Thanks

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  4. please use thiamine 300 mg per day with magneshium as this new research say at this link
    http://stuttersense.blogspot.in/2011/03/thiamine-breakthrough-in-stuttering.html
    and tell us the affect in your way regards

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  5. Hi,
    i suffer from depression and anxieto too, and i quit using fluoxetine and other antidepressants due to the side effects.

    Then i started trying "Nootropics" (refer wikipedia)

    they are relatively very safe, and though i started using them to study better, i feel they have improved my mental issues at the same time. Hope they might help you.

    im right now using Piranulin 800/250 ; Vernace 500 ; and some prodcuts of himalaya like geriforte, mentat and ashwagandha.

    There is this nice forum where people post about nootropic drugs, you can ask your doubts here, and about drugs that could help with stuttering.

    http://www.longecity.org/forum/forum/169-brain-health/

    however some of the drugs mentioned are not available in the indian market; or i couldnt find their brand names.

    Could you let me know if the following drugs are available in india and their brand names if possible? i couldnt find the brands in cimsindia website.

    - Pramiracetam
    - Aniracetam
    - Noopept


    I encourage you to make posts in that forum about your problems. Lots of people help in that site.
    Let me know about the brand names if you can.


    Thanks, and i hope everything works out for you!
    Good luck. Hang in there!

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  6. Hi,
    nice to c ur blog. I want to discuss my son's case (9 yrs.) with you. He is above average IQ but gets irritated easily and has behavorial issues in school and with other children. increased impulsiveness with talking, too may questions. He had seizure only once around 4 yrs, was on tegrital for 2 yrs. and is weaned now. normal MRI but spikes in left/central temporal in eeg.
    He is said to adhd, and is prescribed on
    1) mentat 7.5 ml once a day
    2) rejuvenate multivit+multimineral srup 10ml/day
    3) omega 3fatty acid capsule 1/d
    4) ezlax 10.4 mg sachet 1/d for constipation

    The doctor had actually put him on mentat twice a day with piracetm syrup (2/d) and melost at night. I somehow felt it increased his love feelings, made him drowsy during the day. Also, the doctor had wrongly diagnosed him as Dyslexia, I confirmed he is not dyslexia through special education organizatons so discontinued piracetm after giving it for a week. I also took him off meloset as he sleeps well unless piracetm was given.
    Now three weeks, mentat 1/d and multi-vit/mineral & omega 3 fatty acid seems to reduce his irritability.
    Though he scores well, his social skills in big classroom, attention-seeking behavior, authoritativeness were a problem. With school holidays, I am unable to test this if it works.
    Is mentat working for him, should I continue for him r should I try on the multivit/minerl and omega 3fatty acid for sometime. what do you suggest?

    thanks
    Can I have ur email or any other contact so that can talk about my son..

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  7. Hi,

    Sorry for the late reply. I am busy with my research work for the past two months. Since your son is only 9 years old, I suggest you to follow the doctor's advice. Because, a child's brain is a continuously growing organ until around 12 years of age. Also, I am not an expert in pediatric neurology or pediatric psychiatry. Please consult a qualified pediatric neurologist or psychiatrist and follow the advice. Thanks for your comment.

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  8. Hello, I need to know a way to communicate with you. Would it be possible for you to share your email address or something else ?
    Thanks

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    1. Hi Akshay J,

      Thanks for your comment. I am sorry to say that I cannot give my email or contact details. First of all, I am not running any consultation or advisory service on neuroscience or psychiatry. As I mentioned in About me page, this blog is like a diary to me to recall the effect of medicines. However, the information may be useful to people with similar suffering. That's why I am sharing the details. I strongly advice people to consult a neurologist or psychiatrist for their conditions. Thanks.

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  9. hi...regarding thiamine mononitrate which brand is preferable

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    1. May I know in which country you are asking about?

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  10. U WRITE SOME DIFFERENT FEELING INSIDE HEAD DUE TO GERIFORTE. I AM USING GERIFORTE+ASHWAGANDHA+DIABEC0N DS DUE TO I HAVE DIABETIC AND BP - FOR THE LAST 3 MONTHS I TAKE REGULARLY.BUT SUFFER SOMETHING VERY DIFFICULT INSIDE MY HEAD AND BRAIN ALSO-NOW I COMPLETELY STOP FOR THE LAST 2 DAYS .THE SYMTOMS WILL GO OR NOT? - 00971559776946 - GULAMDASTAGEER -DUBAI -JUST MISS CALL I WILL THEN CALL TO YOU 07-11-2016

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